Tak Perlu Kaubayangkan

“Nobody can help me. Only God can help me,” ujarnya sambil terisak.

“I’m terribly sorry for not being able to accompany you. But you know that I love you, right?”

“Lulu, he’s died. I’m still waiting for the call..”

“You mean comma. He’s still alive,” saya berusaha untuk menenangkannya.

“No, Lulu. Doctors said that he has no hope..” suaranya semakin bergetar. Saya tidak dapat membayangkan bagaimana gemuruh batinnya saat itu.

“Say to me, where are you now?”

“I’m at home waiting for the call. The doctor didn’t allow me to get into the intensive care room.”

“Who do you think is the doctor? Now you go to the hospital. You deserve to be at very side of your husband. You’ll never now if it’s gonna be your last chance or not.”

“I don’t know what to do..” rapalnya berulang-ulang.

“You’ll get depressed if you just stay like this. Listen, he needs you to raise his conciousness. Stay as close as you can.. Suggest him with any possitive things you can say like ‘I love you, stay strong, I need you’ or anything you can say, Miss.. Please, go now”

“Okay, Lulu. I’ll go now. No need to wait for a call.”

“I love you, Miss.” ucap saya menutup pembicaraan.

Setelah telepon ditutup. Saya tertunduk beberapa jenak di jalan membayangkan betapa beratnya ujian hidup yang dialami kawan saya ini. Bagaimana rasanya (akan) kehilangan orang  yang keberadaannya telah menjadi sebagian dari detak jantung kita? Bagaimana rasanya jika episode mimpi untuk menua bersama tiba-tiba harus terpotong di tengah lintasan peristiwa hidup kita?

Dan bagaimana pula aku harus membayangkan kesedihan yang takkan terbayangkan?

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